február 26, 2013

mixed emotions

warning: lots of emotions in the following post.
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my maternal grandmother, born in 1921, has been living in an institute for the elderly. this is a safe place with nurses and with regular medical checkups by special doctors. the institute is run by a church.
my grandmother, who became weak physically in the past 3 or so years has become one of the favourite of the nurses. her kindness and polite behaviour made her really likeable person among the other inmates, too.
in this institute each person has his/her own room and two persons share a bathroom.
it is not a really cheap facility, but not a fancy one either. say, a medium one.
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she sold her flat and moved in when her health weakened.
with all the comfort of the facility around her, her health status kept dropping.
little by little she lost her physical and spiritual strength.
to avoid incidents, such as falling on the ground (you know how easily the bones of the elderly brake...) they began to give her mild sedatives.
i recall her as a caring, warm-hearted, witful and smiling person. she was extremely good at basic mathematics and could easily beat anyone in the simple logical questions of everyday life.
her old self, the one i knew her has gradually faded away.
i kind of imagine that she was in a haze for the past 6 month or so.
with her physical conditions dramatically dropping to a level hardly bearable, and her mind being wandering around in spheres unreacheable to us, i believe her soul was in an eager search to find solace with god and re-unite with her husband (my grandfather, who passed away 5-6 years ago) with whom they led a perfectly, unimaginably solid married life for more than 50 years (was it 60?).
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she passed away a day ago.
i am crying but i feel relief.
may she rest in peace at last.
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this Ave Maria is for her

február 08, 2013

blog news

my father keeps orchideas. he savea rain water in plastic bottles during the summer so as to have a suitable amount to supply the plants during winter and whenever they are in a good need of watering. this photo was made by my father.
this post is to remind all my kind readers that all my writing-related stuff now goes to my second blog, for those posts please visit the top one called 'and i'm writing...' on the right coloumn.
thanks for being with me.