just waiting ...

the business i am in at the moment started about in 2006 as a friendly, careful, thoughtful, but illegal business: with families, friends. all they wanted was better food for their children in the school. so they started cooking at home and served some of the kids right at the school.

(it is the same school my son attended for one and half year)

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by  2010 these friends started to work together on a grant to make the kitchen legal.

the roles have already been set. there were people to organize, people to transport, people to cook.

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since my son no longer attends the school i was not aware of the events. not until late october 2011.

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finally, the grant was issued and they needed someone for one special post.

these people were eager and determined to find someone for a special position and they found me, an old friend of most of the people involved.

three other people have declined the post, but i accepted.

in a certain sense, i saved them, and they, that is we, were able to start the one year journey.

okay, i joined the team early november in 2011.

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eversince november 2011 we have been busy keeping our heads above the water. the tasks are sometimes unclear, but the community, yes, there is a community among my team-mates, is supportive.

in the post i have not been the best. not even near the best i could have been.

i did not feel involved.

i did not feel the job matched me.
i felt uncomfortable.
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but now... :)
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to be continued :) 

eee...eee...

right now i am writing letters of recommendations for myself, on behalf of two of my former/current employers. i am to apply a new job.
at the moment i do have my present job, although i did switch duties.
i no longer work in the management, i kind of 'fell', and i can not tell how happy i am with that decision :)
the new job that is on the horizon is a receptionist at a local hotel. actually it is quite near (about 10 minutes' walk) to where i live.
there are many applicants and the job interviews will be next week.

eee....eee...

writers' course

the large publishing house, yes, the one that had the novel contest is starting a course for writers. it is a virtual one. editors and aspiring authors do not actually meet, but the curiculum is tailored to each and every writer's needs. actually this personal kind of training is a great and promising feature about the course.
there will be tasks and lectures on various aspects of writing.
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the bottom line? is that the course sounded great, but due to the high fee, was out of my reach.

a couple of days ago, three writers who took part in the novel contest were selected to enter the course free of any charge.

guess what, i am one of them.
i can't tell you just how excited i am.
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i will surely let you know about some details as the course commences.
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and this is how i feel right now - photo taken with due consideration from here

my two eyes

one of them is crying - i am to loose my job within a couple of days, or weeks.

the other one is laughing - i am free again.

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'one of my eyes is crying and the other one is laughing' goes the Hungarian proverb to describe a situation you feel ambiguous about. when things may look depressive from one perspective, but promising from another one.

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more about the situation later... things are still a-changing.

what is up (and what is down...)

there are things going around, things i can not put my fingers on - my job, my relationships, my future, and the same applies to my husband as well: our future, our jobs and so on.

there is something i can not define.

a change i may or may not anticipate and/or measure up in advance.

i tend to feel tired one moment and relaxed the other.

i feel contended and 'just at the right place and time' one moment and i have this feeling of 'i am helplessly lost' the other.

is it just that i am growing older, or is it something else?

i am not that very young, but i am physically fit, and before anyone suggests, it is not menopausa already. heehee:)

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i would like to write about it.

but at the moment i can't.

the bugger.

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have a nice day, y'all - and remember to leave your handprints in the comments'. thanks. :))